Someone asked me again today why I don’t blog much about magick. Usually when I’m talking Daemonolatry on this blog or at the .org, I’m talking about the spiritual end of things, or The Great Work. Sometimes I talk technique or my view of a certain thing within magick. Very rarely do I delve into specific techniques or my own magickal work, (i.e. what I’m doing right now). The closest I ever got to really blogging about my own magick regularly was on Andrieh Vitimus’ Magical 30 when we did the Angels and Demons challenge earlier this year. My posts there got a lot of love, and the Daemonolatry community seemed to enjoy it. My problem with it was/is — I am an introvert and like keeping my personal shit to myself. There’s the public me, and then there’s the not-public me, and while there is a magickal aspect of me that is public, there’s also a very private aspect and that aspect doesn’t do magick for an audience. For me, magick is a very solitary art. While I don’t mind writing books about technique and sharing stories of experience in retrospect for the sake of inspiring others, I only share my current magickal work with a select few.
So that’s it right there — the reason I don’t constantly blog about magick. It’s mostly because I don’t do it for an audience and I’m not looking to get everyone’s opinion on my work either. Not to mention when you blog about magick there’s inevitably that one guy who always needs you to explain everything to him because he’s not experienced enough to know what the hell is going on, he just knows it sounds interesting and he wants you to break it down into 101 chunks so he can digest it. Not that I mind doing that – I’m an occult author after all. I just don’t want to have to do it on a blog. Regularly. That stuff is better left to books or live classes.
Enter my friend V who thinks I should blog more about magick. V tells me that if I don’t want to blog everything, that’s okay. But I should at least choose one piece of my magick per month to blog about to give readers some insight into my own magickal life and practice. For example, she said, “We always know you’re in the lab doing stuff, but we want to know what you’re doing in there.”
Playing mad scientist, of course. Mwah! ::laughs:: I guess I can see her point. After all, all the other occult authors seems to blog or post about most of the magick they’re working at any given time. I give hints ::Bael:: but I rarely delve in deep by showing seals or discussing specific interests. I guess in some ways I worry my interests (like the Genii of the Domes or ingestible tinctures for psychic and meditative enhancement) will bore the hell out of people. Or that my rather experimental ways of magick will offend the traditionalists and/or confuse those just starting out because let’s face it — I don’t even follow my own damn books most of the time, unless I’m observing formal worship rites, in which case I’m a hard core traditionalist.
Basically — I do weird shit and have bizarre interests. Ask my fellow OTH members about the time I emailed them all a sigil with a note that said, “Hey, I’m doing an experiment. Would you please print or draw this on paper and stick it in your temple for 24 hours and let me know if you observe anything out of the ordinary?”
And my working-magician friends, they all did it without question and sent me their results (because they’re both adventurous and awesome like that), and they waited until after the fact to ask what the hell I was up to. Sometimes my bizarre little experiments produce no results. Sometime the results are more magnificent than I’d hoped. Yes, I keep personal journals, which I suspect would only be interesting to other hard-core magicians, IF they could make heads or tales of my severe lack of organization.
I don’t know – just sharing it all on the interwebs for everyone to see seems unnatural in some way. Maybe even a bit uncomfortable, like I’m baring myself. It’s the magician’s equivalent of having a sex tape.
But maybe V has a point. Maybe I don’t have to “get naked and suck Daemon dick” so-to-speak. What say all of you? Would you care to read my meanderings on bizarre experiments and the dusty nooks and crannies of magick that I tend climb into? If so (with some enabling – i.e. encouragement) maybe one post a month wouldn’t be so painful…
(And yes — I probably should be doing this on the .org, and will likely crosspost if I do. Then again – this is personal, the .org is the public me.) We’ll see.