A Malkuth of Me,  life

Confessions of a Closet “Girl”

I’ve never been a girly-girl. Most people, when describing me, might even use the word tomboy. I don’t generally wear makeup (or a lot of makeup anyway). I’m not into dresses. I have never been one for shopping etc…

However, as I’ve gotten older I’ve found myself developing a taste for the color pink. I’m finding that there are some instances where I’m actually enjoying clothes shopping. ::shrug:: I spend a bit more time considering makeup and body care products, too. Mostly because with sensitive skin – it’s hard for me to find products that don’t irritate my skin. Plus I’m terrified of soaking up more chemicals than I need to (see previous post about not wanting lead in my lipstick). I guess that as I get older I’m discovering I actually have a feminine side and I’m nurturing it here and there.

I don’t fully give into it because my feminine side is an expensive little beast. I must exercise self-restraint. Of course I only clothes shop once every year or two (or as necessary).  And I only find myself in a position to really splurge on makeup or bath/body products when I run out of stuff. I’m too practical otherwise.

I have three makeup weaknesses — eye liner, nail polish and lipstick. I LOVE LIPSTICK. But sadly the current fashion doesn’t really allow for lipstick. It did back in the eighties and early nineties and I always wore makeup back then. I always wore lipstick. Nowadays when I wear lipstick I feel out of place. I think lipstick should come back in fashion!

Not only that — but I like hats. I’d totally wear hats if they were fashionable. Hats are cool.

In the clothing department I’ve found my splurges seem to happen when it comes to jeans and bras. I’m hard on jeans. I run through them quickly. As a big chested girl, the older I get the more I find need for support. Good bras are hard to come by and they seem to need replacement more often, too.

I guess it’s probably a good thing that I’ve finally acknowledged my feminine side. Had I kept ignoring her she may have gone all out and kicked my ass in some way. Maybe she would have gone on a thousand dollar shopping spree and gotten herself a complete makeover replete with bleach blonde hair or something crazy…

Steph is an award winning and bestselling author of thrilling steamy and paranormal romances, dark urban fantasy, occult horror-thrillers, cozy mysteries, contemporary romance, sword and sorcery fantasy, and books about the esoteric and Daemonolatry. A Daemonolatress and forever a resident of Smelt Isle, she is happily married and cat-mom to three pampered house cats. Her muse is a demanding sadistic Dom who often keeps her up into the wee hours of the morning. You can contact her at swordarkeereon@gmail.com

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