Today’s ritual was uneventful as the rest, though I am seeing the changes and manifestation of the magick. I am getting a lot done, but I’m also seeing the importance of things not on the writing to-do list. This probably doesn’t bode well for my current WIP.
Last night before bed, I started going over the to-do list and started panicking and feeling overwhelmed by it.
Today I answered a ton of mail, got a ton more. Had lunch with the exceptional spouse, did my video for Authors Unwritten, had my dental appointment, and caught up on some blog posts. I still have a couple of readings to do before bed. Notice how writing, again, didn’t make it into the equation. I pulled some cards earlier on the matter and they suggested that I needed to pause and take time for things that are important right now. Well right now, catching up on readings, getting ready for my presentations at conference, getting my class notes ready for Divination — they’re all just as important at the writing, though some of the other stuff is much more urgent since it has a time frame.
I need to pick one thing, see it through to completion. Pick another thing and just do it to completion. Right now the most important things are my class/workshop outlines because those events are coming up quickly. My sister-in-law coming into town is a bit of a wrench in the wheel because that eliminates part of my Sunday for that work, and it also means I need to complete all the readings + my meeting with my co-teacher for the divination class before 3PM. I rebel against being forced to do things in others’ time.
I just need to get this challenge done, get my outlines done and my readings done. Next weekend I will have one final weekend before conference so I can save those other two outlines for next weekend. I might just need to put in a bit more time.
I also need to make my annual eye appt, and my regular doctor appointment to have my cholesterol and blood sugar checked. Maybe I can get those taken care of in September and all my health checkups will be done for the year until next summer/fall.
I feel like I’m lapsing back into busy – living just to complete tasks only to make it to the next one. Everything becomes obligatory. More thinking on this required. Gotta figure it out or I’m going run myself ragged and continue burning my candle at both ends. I need to sit down and make some lists and make some tough choices. I’ve already axed some stuff for 2019. I may have to cut more. I need more downtime even if it’s only temporary.