I did the ritual this morning through the haze and fog of a sinus headache, which dissipated the longer I was verticle. I felt a light heart-ache. the desire to create, in both my heart and throat chakras. Could have been that I knew I had a bunch of readings to do today and a class to teach that stopped that creative urge right in its tracks.
Found myself thinking about the process of creation and what parts of my life serve that purpose. I’ve been doing a lot of challenges lately, probably in hopes of finding something I’ve missed. I am really looking forward to doing The Artist’s Way workshop with a group of writer friends in Dec-Feb, and discovering what morning pages are all about. I’ve heard writers talking about morning pages for years and never really knew what they were talking about, but it didn’t sound interesting enough to look up until recently. I guess we find the things we need to find when it’s time to find them, right?
I’ve been thinking about a lot of things now that the path ahead has become clearer. Usually, it all results in more questions (which I pulled cards on today and have included the answers the reading gave me):
- Does the path I’m on serve me best? Yes.
- Am I happy? I am most happy when I am productive and life is stable.
- What can I do better? Take time for my self and my loved ones. As a workaholic, I struggle here, but I’m getting better.
- What can I leave behind? Fear and self-doubt.
- What is essential? Discipline.
Asking ourselves these questions regularly can help us steer our lives in the direction we need to be heading at that time. What we need from year to year changes. Two years ago I needed to be more engaged with other creative people. Now I need to find more of a balance between the solitary writing time and the engagement with others.
Now I’m off to finish readings, some writing group to-do’s etc… I have a lot to finish in the next five hours.