Today I sat down and did thirty minutes of intent-setting meditation before heading to work. I didn’t get as much done yesterday as I wanted (seems to be the story of my life), and so today I felt motivated to catch up. The only problem — stuck at the day job. The day job is one of those things where you never catch up. The cycle of paperwork in and out is never ending. While reports and tasks have a schedule and deadlines, very rarely does it change month to month. The day job is predictable, boring, and it can be soul sucking because it’s so damn dull and repetitive. But it helps with regular pay checks to tide us over between royalty payments, which only happen once a month or every quarter (depending on publisher/distributor).
Creativity is a different ball of wax. I can force myself to sit down and write a scene or work on a ritual, but if it doesn’t come from the heart, if I’m not into it, it comes out hollow and dead and I have to fix it more during the revision and subsequent editing process. Today – creative inspiration hit between commission and monthly billing/AR Spreadsheets/Cash Logs. You know – the exciting, riveting parts of my job. Numbers, numbers everywhere.
So I stole moments and jotted some notes in my email draft folder and had to laugh because this is how I end up with pages upon pages of material in my email. When I cut and paste it all into the files at home, I often end up with thousands of words.
You have to do what you have to do to get the job done.