Today is my birthday. I always tell family and friends that it’s not really a big deal, that it’s just another fucking day. Some years I enjoy the yearly tradition of my husband taking me out to eat, other years I don’t really care one way or the other. This year I’m looking forward to dinner out. I’m not a party person or a gift person. I figure once someone is over the age of 20 – birthdays aren’t a big deal anymore and don’t require all that fanfare. Spend the day with your closest friend(s) or family and enjoy that. No other celebration required. But then you’re talking to a person who didn’t have a wedding (because they’re too people-y), who has already told the family that there will be NO funeral. Even if funerals are for the living… they don’t need to drag my dead ass into it. And there better be alcohol and Sem priests there. Seh Akh Rites anyone? Hopped up on alcohol – that could be rather amusing. Okay, fine. If my family decides to do a memorial after I’m dead — make it a kegger, with BBQ, add some fire and Daemonic ritual to the mix – and have fun.
That said – I’m not dead yet and that means I still have to deal with lots of people-y situations whether I like it or not. Spent at least one hour today obsessing over downtown parking, which has become much more daunting than talking to actual people. HAHA. (And this is what it’s like to suffer from anxiety folks!)
I did start my day in the temple. Had breakfast. Was running late (long story). The cat was annoying me by using me as a jungle gym. Went to the office – it’s a payroll week which means busy and frustrating.
Hubs took me out to dinner. It was tasty. Got home late, had to do some work related work before bed. Getting ready to do meditation after I hit post on this. Seriously – June was a bad month for this. What I should have done for my June #DoMagick was “keep my head above water.” Oh wait – that’s exactly what I feel like I’m doing. LOL July 15th can’t come soon enough, and August sounds GLORIOUS! I hope to the gods it’s BORING. I need just one month where I feel relaxed where I can go sit in the backyard and bask in the sun for an hour with no responsibilities, no obligations, no worries. Just an hour — it’s not asking much. What a life that would be.
Today’s Lenormand Card: The Dog: Trust in others. Ask for help if you need it. Fulfill your obligations. Be loyal. Well – today I am doing the payroll. I am fulfilling obligations like a mother-fucker. (4 More Days!!!!)