Got up this morning. Opened the temple. Prayer and offerings. Had my coffee. Got to work at 9am. Was feeling a bit anxious this morning. Overwhelmed. Unable to function creatively.
The first thing I did this afternoon was go to a friend and whine to him, “HELP! I can’t get anything done!” Then I proceeded to offload all my stress on him. He reminded me to breathe and reminded me that I just needed fifteen minutes. Nothing more. Fifteen minutes and I could, in the very least, work some meditative magick to get my ass calmed down and refocused. I needed that.
I actually spent some time at the day job today catching up on blog posts. No, I shouldn’t be using office time writing blogs, but I just didn’t have time at home over the weekend.
Let’s just say that my first four days of this challenge were, ultimately, an epic fail. It happens – even to seasoned magicians. You just get up, dust yourself off, and get back on the damn horse. It often helps to remind myself (and others) that failure is PART OF success. They’re not independent of one another. Especially when you’re trying to bring REAL change into your life. Not superficial bullshit.
Again, the blogging is hard. I may try to start using Dragon to speed the process along, but that also requires me finding a quiet work space where I won’t be bothered. Might have to lock myself in my office again. Provided it’s not a freezing cold wasteland in there. I really need to get that space heater installed. Even in the middle of summer with the vent closed, the AC renders the room uninhabitable. Maybe DH is right and I need to move my office into the breakfast nook and turn that room into a library or reading room only. The only problem being no privacy and no peace and quiet.
That said, I was thinking about it this afternoon and realized I have been doing little writing-career bits here and there since the first. So maybe the beginning of the month has not been a complete failure. There’s the whole Comic Con planning to deal with. Finally got my table times there, which will help me schedule the rest of the weekend. I submitted my information for the September 8th book signing at Colorado Gold. The author of the Outlander series, Diana Gabaldon, will be signing books alongside the rest of us RMFW authors this year, so we’re hoping to have a big public turnout.
So maybe I need to chill the hell out and go with it. My writing mojo will return. I seem to be coming out of my cocoon again.
Today’s Tarot Card: Eight of Wands: Swiftness, progress, energy. Looks like things are going to shift significantly. Which is exactly what I need right now.