A Malkuth of Me,  Spirituality,  the writing life,  thoughts

A Painful Truth

I sat at my desk at the p/t day job, typing away the day’s drudgery. Like always, my mind wandering to far more interesting places.

There, in that daydream,  I found myself sitting across from Leviathan. He wore a smirk and a raised eyebrow.  “We need to have a talk.”

Uh, oh, I thought. Bringing down divine intelligence on oneself can be a pretty heavy handed thing in my experience. I began to wonder what it was that I’d done this time.

“You’re wondering why you’re not cultivating the same success you did in earlier years.”

He had me. It was true that I’d been sliding a bit, and wondering what was causing the slide.

“It’s all about the company you keep,” he said.

I felt my brow furrow with confusion. What did that have to do with the price of tea in China? I didn’t have to respond. It’s the habit of divine intelligence to know what you’re thinking. Such is its nature.

“No, I’m not saying you should blame anything on others. I’m only pointing out that those you surround yourself with influence your behavior, which then influences your level of success.” He gave me a kind smile.

My thoughts fluttered to a blog post I did on another site about the power of words, and how words can bring different things into one’s life.

He nodded. “What you surround yourself with is what you cultivate, too. Who were the people closest to you during that period of sheer joy and success?”

I immediately ran over to my FB feed and clicked on my timeline for October 2010 to March 2011, paying close attention to who I spent a lot of time with online. What I saw floored me. Not only did I see a strong cultivation of positive emotions, I noticed some missing elements. Patterns began to emerge.

“Do you see what I’m saying?” he asked.

I nodded. “Yes.”

I was shocked at what I’d just discovered. Still shocked really. Amazing how we sometimes don’t notice patterns until it’s pointed out to us.

Steph is an award winning and bestselling author of thrilling steamy and paranormal romances, dark urban fantasy, occult horror-thrillers, cozy mysteries, contemporary romance, sword and sorcery fantasy, and books about the esoteric and Daemonolatry. A Daemonolatress and forever a resident of Smelt Isle, she is happily married and cat-mom to three pampered house cats. Her muse is a demanding sadistic Dom who often keeps her up into the wee hours of the morning. You can contact her at swordarkeereon@gmail.com

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