True – true. I don’t call myself: “ScaryEvil666SatanicWitchSorceressDarkPriestessofLeviathan”, but I sometimes go by the moniker “Adrianna” because that’s been my magickal nickname since the late 80’s. Of course I’ve never made my real name a secret, nor the fact that I write fiction AND non-fiction, nor the fact that I have four pen-names. After all, I have to make sure my readers can find my work.
I don’t dress in all black. I’m probably not metal. I only have one tattoo. I’m in a stable, monogamous, happy relationship, and have been for 14 years. I have a ::gasp:: career as a novelist. (The occult books are a labor of love.) I spent a large majority of my adult life working in accounting.
I do dye my hair on occasion when I get bored with the natural auburn. I usually go a bit redder. That’s probably as wild with my appearance as I get. I no longer smoke. I rarely drink alcohol. I don’t do drugs (unless you count caffeine).
My temple isn’t covered in black, nor is it full of Halloween props. Nope – I keep the Halloween decorations in a tote in the basement. I pull them out in October to decorate the exterior of the house for Halloween. The neighborhood kids enjoy it.
I haven’t taken any pictures of myself by candlelight, donned in black robes surrounded by Halloween props either.
I don’t need to play dress-up to convince others, or myself, who I am or what I am. I know who I am and what I am. I’m rather comfortable in my own skin, thank you very much.
I worship the Daemonic Divine. I practice blood magick. I practice necromancy. I am a priestess. I am a magician. But I don’t constantly shout it from the rooftops because I don’t have an insecure need to. I’d rather lurk in the shadows of underestimation anyway. It gives me an advantage. I don’t end every conversation with blessings of this Daemon or that Daemon or Hail/Ave [insert Daemonic name here].
I don’t feel the need to spend all my time trying to convince others that my path is the right one for me, or that I am what I say I am. I have no desire to convert anyone. I have no desire to lead anyone either. You’re either called to Daemonolatry or you aren’t. That’s your business, not mine. I don’t spend all my free time trying to invalidate others (or their beliefs) to elevate myself because, believe it or not, I really don’t care what complete strangers do or believe.
I write the NF occult books I write because I believe in what I practice and I want to share information with like-minded people. Nothing more, nothing less.
I prefer to spend my time minding my own business instead of everyone else’s. This is why I have accomplished so much in my life and have so many published books. I mind my own business and do what I love to do, and I don’t really care if others like it or not.
I see so many people out there spending all their time upholding an image, or trying to gather a following, or trying to spread their own personal truths as gospel. This makes me laugh. I wonder how much they could actually accomplish if they put the same amount of effort into bettering themselves and their own lives instead of wasting all that time minding everyone else’s business, trying to destroy others, and/or trying to gather a following.
If all of this makes me fluffy, then so be it. I’m fluffy. But at least I’m not a sheep or a poseur. 😉