A Malkuth of Me,  Magick,  religion,  Spirituality,  thoughts


wp_20160528_001Okay, maybe a little. I like fluffy kittens and soft puppies. I’m a sucker for fluffy bunnies, too.  They’re so adorable with their flippity-flop ears and foofball tails. Who doesn’t like fluffy?

True  – true. I don’t call myself: “ScaryEvil666SatanicWitchSorceressDarkPriestessofLeviathan”, but I sometimes go by the moniker “Adrianna” because that’s been my magickal nickname since the late 80’s.  Of course I’ve never made my real name a secret, nor the fact that I write fiction AND non-fiction, nor the fact that I have four pen-names. After all, I have to make sure my readers can find my work.

I don’t dress in all black. I’m probably not metal. I only have one tattoo.  I’m in a stable, monogamous, happy relationship, and have been for 14 years. I have a ::gasp:: career as a novelist. (The occult books are a labor of love.) I spent a large majority of my adult life working in accounting.

I do dye my hair on occasion when I get bored with the natural auburn. I usually go a bit redder. That’s probably as wild with my appearance as I get. I no longer smoke. I rarely drink alcohol. I don’t do drugs (unless you count caffeine).

My temple isn’t covered in black, nor is it full of Halloween props. Nope – I keep the Halloween decorations in a tote in the basement. I pull them out in October to decorate the exterior of the house for Halloween. The neighborhood kids enjoy it.

I haven’t taken any pictures of myself by candlelight, donned in black robes surrounded by Halloween props either.

I don’t need to play dress-up to convince others, or myself, who I am or what I am. I know who I am and what I am. I’m rather comfortable in my own skin, thank you very much.

I worship the Daemonic Divine. I practice blood magick. I practice necromancy. I am a priestess. I am a magician. But I don’t constantly shout it from the rooftops because I don’t have an insecure need to. I’d rather lurk in the shadows of underestimation anyway. It gives me an advantage. I don’t end every conversation with blessings of this Daemon or that Daemon or Hail/Ave [insert Daemonic name here].

I don’t feel the need to spend all my time trying to convince others that my path is the right one for me, or that I am what I say I am. I have no desire to convert anyone. I have no desire to lead anyone either.  You’re either called to Daemonolatry or you aren’t. That’s your business, not mine. I don’t spend all my free time trying to invalidate others (or their beliefs) to elevate myself because, believe it or not, I really don’t care what complete strangers do or believe.

I write the NF occult books I write because I believe in what I practice and I want to share information with like-minded people.  Nothing more, nothing less.

I prefer to spend my time minding my own business instead of everyone else’s. This is why I have accomplished so much in my life and have so many published books. I mind my own business and do what I love to do, and I don’t really care if others like it or not. 

I see so many people out there spending all their time upholding an image, or trying to gather a following, or trying to spread their own personal truths as gospel. This makes me laugh. I wonder how much they could actually accomplish if they put the same amount of effort into bettering themselves and their own lives instead of wasting all that time minding everyone else’s business, trying to destroy others, and/or trying to gather a following.

If all of this makes me fluffy, then so be it. I’m fluffy.  But at least I’m not a sheep or a poseur.  😉

Steph is an award winning and bestselling author of thrilling steamy and paranormal romances, dark urban fantasy, occult horror-thrillers, cozy mysteries, contemporary romance, sword and sorcery fantasy, and books about the esoteric and Daemonolatry. A Daemonolatress and forever a resident of Smelt Isle, she is happily married and cat-mom to three pampered house cats. Her muse is a demanding sadistic Dom who often keeps her up into the wee hours of the morning. You can contact her at swordarkeereon@gmail.com


    • Steph

      Well, I have pictures of myself and friends (never alone) in ritual gear because people took pictures directly after a ritual completed, I just don’t post them as my facebook profile pic to prove I am what I am or to uphold an image. Clearly you didn’t do the photo to prove you are who and what you are, either, or to uphold an “image”. LOL! It’s the “image occultists” who that little comment was for (since they’re the ones critical of me for being ‘fluffy’). 😉

  • Tanya

    Ehem, *tap, tap, tap* Is this mic on? Ok. I would have really liked this post about fluffyness and such IF you included at least ONE picture of a unicorn. Your statement is unrealistic and makes no sense UNLESS you have a unicorn. Other than that — good job! I liked what you said.
    Ok now my guilty conscience time…I do sometimes encourage by commenting on extreme enthusist friends of mine’s posts about their mission in life on
    hatred for almost any religion. But, I dont make it my life to shout from the roof and could care less what people believe.

  • Tanya

    Oh, oh, one other thing…I do, however, take issue with religious groups who try to take over the world with their propaganda and attempt to control other peoples beliefs by trying to create laws in that sense. Lets leave taking over the world to Pinky and the Brain. *walks off stage*

  • Jennifer K.

    Awesome post is awesome. Being considered fluffy for not being all darkness and black and emo and wannabe scary rawr, is far preferable to being a sheep.

    I agree with Tanya though…the post is missing a unicorn.

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