Hey, Muse. Can we talk? I have been summoning you every day for the past eight days, and each day you show up and we embrace — I draw you into me. Yet here we are – less than 700 words on most days. I’m expecting some fountain of inspiration and you’ve wandered off to… wherever.
When I finally sat you down for a discussion, you explained that I needed to chill out – get zen. You told me I needed to learn to relax and go with it, to quit tensing up and obsessing when the schedule got derailed because you couldn’t handle it when I was in that kind of mood. You told me you were tired of me putting everyone else, and everything else, before you and that if I wanted our relationship to work — I needed to spend some quality time with you. That’s why you keep leaving early, just when I feel like I’m starting to get somewhere, I stop and abandon you mid-stream for something or someone else, and so you wander off. I can’t say I blame you.
So I’ve sat and thought about it both yesterday and today and — you’re right. I need to let you finish the stream of consciousness even if the exceptional spouse needs attention. He can wait until the thought is finished. I need to tell everyone and everything else that they/it can WAIT several hours until I have time to deal with them and their agendas. I have had to remind myself that YOU are MY agenda and next to the exceptional spouse (and some close family) – YOU are my priority. Everything else is secondary.
I vow here and now to make you a priority for the MINIMUM of ONE hour every day/night. We will start this new collaboration tonight.