So September was a shitty month for #DoMagick. I just had too many things going on to make the blogging end of things happen. Numerous events also derailed my yoga practice a few days here and there, thus breaking that chain of “daily” practice. Had I been smart, I would have just done meditation (though that would have been cheating). It was just an off month full of too many events, and October will be no better. I am, literally, booked solid until November. This is the wonder of Sorath. While Sorath hasn’t crushed my spirit or caused me to wilt or go hide in a cave somewhere, he is certainly testing my endurance and patience; both of which, to my surprise, have held up rather well to the flames. Perhaps I am well suited to this. It’s just a matter of finding my rhythm.
I think it came with the realization that sometimes we have to look at our own situation and say to ourselves, “I asked for this. This is exactly what I wanted.” Then, instead of fighting against it, we submit to it and accept that the thing that could potentially destroy us, is part of the job (or situation). Of course if one truly doesn’t want what Sorath brings, then clearly they didn’t think through what they wanted. I know writers who constantly travel the world over to attend events and I’ve always had the utmost respect for them. While I’m keeping it close to home, there are literally enough events on the home front to keep me busy for… well… months.
That said, I’m just rolling with it and learning how to pace myself. Accepting that if Sorath is giving me what I want, that I need to accept the part of the job that exhausts me and leaves my head spinning with the avalanche of to-do’s. You can’t have one without the other. Even the best jobs have shitty parts. You can’t just take all the fun and leave the crap behind. That’s not how it works. You take all of it – or nothing.
Thus, in the rest of your life you have to reconfigure your life according to priorities.
In the meantime – more Sorath work and I think I’ve decided to do a divination series for myself. I do tons of divination for other people, but for myself it amounts to pulling a daily card (or three card spread). Never anything extensive. I think it’s time to get extensive with myself. (Sounds kinky.)