So I’m beginning to think this particular model configuration is drawing a lot of extra obligations into the mix. But instead of an immediate reconfiguration, I’m going to work through this. Sorath is shining a light on bigger issues. Personal issues that likely need to be addressed before I can move forward. Ignoring them could be a bad mistake. What I’m slowly discovering is that some people in my life still aren’t supportive of my writing time. That was mind blowing, and disappointing. On top of that, Sorath has made me question whether or not I’m a good person by throwing situations into my life where I’m being forced to choose between helping myself (by keeping my writing time) and helping others (by giving up my writing time). Sometimes it’s damn easy to choose. Other cases, not so much. Yeah – Sorath burns in ways I never expected.
Me and my very bad mood have decided to go meditate and go straight to bed. I have an early day tomorrow and I need to shake this shitty attitude – gotta go load in books to the convention center in the morning. Yay!
Today’s Lenormand Card: Woman – Your own needs should take priority. Make your own decisions. The end of one thing and the beginning of another. Transformation.
Thanks, Sorath. LOL Trying to look on the bright side. There is a bright side.