The Black Sun: Sorath #daemonolatry #magick
Today I’m ruminating on some work that seemed larger than life at the beginning of the year, but is seeming more and more manageable. But it will require me to come up with a much more cohesive plan that will require discipline to adhere to. Last September I ran a seminar on writing productivity at one of the bigger writing conferences in the region, and I’m realizing now that even then – I was thinking too small. Within the next six months I may find myself with an opportunity to go big, in which case I need to be prepared with a bigger plan. A plan I have, admittedly, been holding off on due to numerous factors. (Sorry for being so vague, but nothing is written in stone and there’s no point divulging anything until I know for sure.) Part of me thinks, “Well regardless, might as well go bigger.” The problem with that, of course, being time. In order to go bigger, I need more time. Sadly my writing days seem to generate a lot of errand running and administrative work, and additional side jobs, and I’m working on streamlining these things to keep them OUT of my writing time. So far, I have been only mildly successful in this . So no more! Starting in April – I am getting my schedule together.
And this again leads me back to the Sorath work. Being a disciplined creative brings challenges of its own. Inspiration and great ideas don’t happen on a schedule. Sure, you can write on a regular schedule, pumping out XX word count every day. But the great ideas — those fucking things hit you while you’re showering, driving, grocery shopping, sleeping, at the day job, doing administrative work, working on higher priority things, and so on. They’re never convenient and they always require dropping one thing in order to deal with them before the idea or inspiration is gone. Especially if you want to create something fantastic. Of course the truly great ideas will nag at you for days, weeks, even months or years if you don’t deal with them. Little bastards. (Or should I say big bastards?)
That said, I am having some inspiration here at the day job today and it involves my Sorath work, a square of the sun, the foundational seal of Sorath (or “Sore Ass” as my dictation software keeps insisting), and a puzzle, which is slowly unfolding. The pieces are coming together. But it can’t be pushed. Sometimes you can only wait and meditate on something until it reveals itself to you. Admittedly I am fascinated with this particular revelation.
This begins the work I’m sharing on my Patreon with Patrons who pledge $3 or more each month. When you see it – I think it will inspire you, too.
