Day 29: Merging #domagick

This morning’s ritual was a little different. Today I invoked both Ashtaroth and Bathin and drew them both through me in a meditation that brought the light from both of their sigils into me. I was focusing on being calm and direct for the day since it was my first day back at the day job in six days. I know – for someone who works a part-time (full time by some people’s standards) you would think I wouldn’t need that kind of prep to head into the office, but my day job can be rather stressful. Today it wasn’t. I think I handled it in stride, with plenty of grace. I don’t have to go back until Friday, but Friday should be exhausting. A lot going on. Lots of projects involving numbers. LOL Reminds me of  a story about the time my husband asked me about what I wanted for Yule one year and I was sitting on the couch using one of those old scientific handheld calculators to do my payroll prep. I said, “I want a real adding machine. Ten-key, for here at home.”  He got me one as a joke, but I love the damn thing and use the hell out of it. He still gets a grin on his face everytime he sees me pull it out (which is almost daily).  I’m a math junkie. What can I say? It’s the little things…

Do I feel any different today? A little exhausted, but I feel better after the chakra balancing. Yeah — that needs to happen often. It’s like astral chocolate for my body and brain. It’s like watching hypno-toad.

Today’s Tarot Card: Ace of Swords  – Clarity and understanding. Cutting away the bullshit and knowing what to leave behind and what isn’t serving you going forward. That’s been a big theme this month when it comes to figuring out my self-sabotage triggers and how I can overcome them, and some of that came with a great deal of personal shit. Let’s face it – we all have personal shit. We can either rise above it, or cut it out of our lives, or we can hang onto it and let it hold us back. I still have some shit I will have to let go, and some triggers that will make me start down that road to self-sabotage, but I am recognizing it for what it is now, and stopping and redirecting myself when I see it. Have I been perfect in eliminating self-sabotage permenantly? Hell no. I think this is going to be a work in progress, as all self work is. Maybe by the time I’m in my 70’s or 80’s I’ll stop self-sabotaging on-demand. LOL But until that happens, it will be something I need to be mindful of daily.

Tomorrow is the last day of #domagick for me! It’s a “writing day” so in that spirit I’m going to do another Invocation to Ashtaroth and Bathin, write words, visit with a friend, and who knows – maybe I’ll tackle the glamorous job of laundry. Hey – even magicians have to do laundry. I tried to get my servitors to do it and Fox said, “Are you shitting me? Not my job. Time to patrol the perimeter.”  A job to which he is much more suited. Besides, much like my cats, he does not have opposable thumbs. Where are minions when you need them?

About Steph

Steph is a prolific writer and bestselling author of thrilling erotic romances, occult thrillers, and books about the esoteric and Daemonolatry. She also dabbles in romantic and fantasy fiction. In 2016, three of her titles (Ascending Darkness, Lucifer's Haven and Temple Apophis) were nominated for the Summer Indie Book Awards. A Daemonolatress and forever a resident of Smelt Isle, she is happily married and cat-mom to three pampered house cats. Her muse is a demanding sadistic Dom who often keeps her up into the wee hours of the morning. You can contact her at swordarkeereon@gmail.com

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