I woke at 7, fed the cats, then went into the temple to leave offerings and prayers to Bathin. Today, in offering, I just burnt incense of frankincense and sandalwood. I said a quick prayer. I won’t lie and say it was a long one, it wasn’t. I simply asked for guidance on how to stop self-sabotage. The response I got was one word. Discipline. I’ve been seriously lacking the discipline I need in the past nine months. That discipline is essential in catapulting me toward the Sorath work, and ending this endless cycle of self-sabotage.
Things I noticed today – I didn’t have as many negative thoughts about my abilities and self-worth. Unlike Saturday when I caught myself thinking that my writing sucked, at which point I reminded myself that everyone’s first drafts suck. That’s what editing and revision are for. Gotta get the words out, then make them pretty. That’s such an important lesson for ANY writer. So if you write – remember that. Not to mention, what’s good in the world of fiction is totally subjective. Funny how you can 35 reviews saying people loved your work, and then one or two bad ones where readers think a book blows – and the minority of shitty reviews are what the writer mind focuses on. Even though the majority of the reviews are pretty good. Go figure.
Today’s Card: Seven of Pentacles
It’s time for me to stand back and re-evaluate everything. I need to look back and find out what worked and what didn’t and adjust my priorities and schedule based on past successes and how those successes put me on the path to meeting goals. I decided to make a list.
- Writing – everyday. At least 1500 words minimum. 2500 is better.
- Write faster, even if it means more editing and revision. Get the words out.
- Write to market!!! Abandon projects that I’m not passionate about. This also means either completing or dumping series’ work that people aren’t interested in. I’ve already started doing this. I am finished ETG this year. I think I may abandon the contemporary romance. I’m just not passionate about it.
- Work toward a goal of putting out 4 novels a year (on top of the novellas and shorter work I’m doing). I am already at 2 novels a year.
- Focus on pen-names that people are interested in. That means allowing S. J. Reisner some time to simmer for awhile.