My 20-Year HS Reunion was this past weekend. I didn’t go. But it is the event that sparked this post.
With the advent of social networking sites like Facebook, more and more people look up and reconnect with their childhood friends. It’s really amazing how the people of that time frame seem to effect us. It’s also interesting how nostalgic people are to reconnect.
I have reconnected with about twelve people from my gradeschool through high school years. A few I’ve really enjoyed spending some time with. Of course reconnecting with old friends often means finding out what happened to the people who tormented you or wouldn’t give you the time of day back then as well.
I was a very introverted child. I was always very artistic and creative. Deeply emotional to a fault. And above all else – insecure as hell. It’s interesting to me to see some of those feelings of insecurity resurface now, 20 years later, when I end up coming back into contact with these people. After all – I wasn’t good enough for them then (or at least that’s how I felt treated.) And who knows if they really felt that way, or if I was merely *thinking* that’s how they felt. Not to mention we were cruel teenagers back then and people grow up, right?
My adult life has been wonderful and just keeps getting better. I’m a bit more confident now, albeit still shy around people I don’t know. Sometimes to an embarrassing fault. So why is it I can’t bring myself to go to any “reunion” of any sort or to a friend’s book signing just because I know some of old “snob gang” will be there? I’m a grown woman, for Christ’s sake, and a successful one at that.
This is definitely one of those things I probably ought to ponder and figure out why I’m feeling so insecure all of a sudden. I haven’t felt this self conscious since High School. Perhaps I should just go and see what happens. If I’m snubbed, so be it. I’ve lived this long without those people, right? What they think of me doesn’t amount to a hill of beans, nor has it dictated my successes or failures in life.